I'M GOING TO CHANGE THE WORLD!!!!!!!!

I've always said I want to change the world. I never knew how. I tried to change the people around me. I tried to love toxic people enough to remove their toxicity. I failed.

WHAT WAS I DOING WRONG????

I'm an empath. And when I say I'm an empath I don't mean I care about people. I don't mean I can sense people's moods. I mean I literally absorb someone's entire being. I take their joy, their pain, their everything, and I truly feel who they are down to their core. I'm like a sponge. In a sense, I become the person I'm with. I become everyone I'm with in a room. They are absorbed into me so much that I forget who I am.

You can't change someone who doesn't want to change. So why did I try so hard? Because I believe everyone is inherently good. (mostly) I believe everyone deserves to find themselves and to be happy. And I believe that I truly am the person that can guide them. That's what I was put on this earth for. I've known it since I was a child. I've always known I was put here to accomplish something great. I've never felt truly fulfilled because I know I'm meant for greatness.

But I went about it all wrong. I gravitated toward the types of people who sucked me in and took advantage of my pure heart. They perceived me as weak...as someone they could take advantage of and control. In a sense, they were right. But I still tried with everything I had to lead them, guide them, be the person they knew they could always depend on. I thought that if I was strong enough for them, they would begin to see that they too could be strong. The problem was I was trying to be that for people who didn't want to change. I never truly lost myself, but I have to be honest with myself. I lost my way.

So how do I do what I want to do and not get taken advantage of? How do I help people and finally feel the sense of fulfillment I've been searching for my entire life?

One.

Step.

At.

A.

Time.

Period.

I protect myself from the energy drainers of the world.

I allow the people who love me to support me and help me. I lean on them. (That's very hard for me btw...you have no idea how hard.)

I stop trying to be everything to everyone (another hard thing for me to do) and be everything to myself.

Then, and only then, can I help someone change. But I won't try to change the narcissistic assholes of the world. They don't want to change. I will help the people who want help. I'll focus on people who will truly appreciate me and all that I have to give. That's a lot. And I mean A LOT.

I'm going to be a motivational speaker. Maybe I'll even be a life coach. I'm researching that now. I'm not entirely sure how to do it right this second, but I do know I'm finally on the right track. Everyone always says success is a slow process. I don't believe that. I can achieve my goals one step at a time. I'm just going to fast track myself. I'm going to tell my story. I'm going to listen to other stories. I'm going to be the person I want to be and have the career I truly want.

I'm going to change the world.

I'm going to change the fucking world.

I'm going to change the entire fucking world.

Did you hear me??

I AM GOING TO CHANGE THE ENTIRE FUCKING WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Lynae

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